Okay at first I signed up for Facebook just because I got paid to sign up but then I realized that I started to get alot of friend request from people that I haven't heard from in years.Now don't get me wrong, it was good to hear from some people but some of those people that you never cared for before....well you know how it is.
Anyways so I decided to keep the page just so that I could stay in contact with my family all over the world......well to make a long story short...I logged in to my account the other day to see that I had a friend request from my biological father. Now I don't know my father at all. I've met him once in my life and never heard or seen him since.
Now you would think that any one should be happy to find thier father after all of these years but I'm not as enthused. The reason for me saying that is because my father use to beat on my mom. He has even beaten her into the state of shock once,knocking all of her front teeth out(top and bottom).He has almost killed my mom on several different occassions when I was just a baby.He has even beaten her around family members causing her to fear him more than anything in this world.After deciding that my mother could no longer take fearing him every day of her life, she called a 1 800 number for a shelter for abused women one day after telling my father that she was just going to the store for more formula.Little did he know that she was leaving and going into hiding.So my mom ended up moving us all the way from the west coast to the east coast. Now I'm 29 and he pops up and made a page with Facebook just to search for me.
My mom is still scared of him and says that he is psychotic and she doesn't know how well he deals with rejection if I decided to not talk to him....I'm really confused...a part of me just wanted to know what he was like and what reason he had for doing what he did to my mother and another part of me says to leave it alone...why after all these years and having other children did he decide to act as if I existed?....what could he want?.....
Do you think that I should accept his friend request?What do you think about all of this?....I really need to hear some thoughts on this...