I hope you won't mind me long message this morning. I've been up since 4:30 doing homework and the supper dishes are still in the sink. I haven't had my shower yet and I have to leave in an hour so I'm feeling frantic but I just felt the need to vent. I'm upset at the office manager where I'm interning because of a situation that I feel is unfair. Two weeks ago Monday I went in to work and all but 2 out of a staff of 8 were not there. The doctor, the nurse practioner, two medical assistants and the audiologist were all gone leaving nothing but the allergist and the front desk clerk. When I arrived the other two girls told me I might as well leave as there was nothing to do. So having better things to do than sit for 3 hours doing nothing...I went home. Keep in mind that they never had any hours for me on Fridays because they close the office half a day or my hours would have been done much quicker. Keep in mind too that I went in and worked on days when I had no school, Good Friday and the day after Easter because I knew they were open and had a busy schedule.
When the office manager had me sign my hours this week she had me marked as absent on that day. I asked her about it and she said...you were scheduled to work. I told her the situation but she refused to remove the absent mark. This goes against my grade and I told her that. She just shrugged and walked away. I told her I would be contesting the mark and I will. I don't think it is fair and it is her job to make sure her demands are clear and I was never told that I was to stay when the doctors were not in the office nor told not to leave when any of the other staff tells me to or suggests that I do so.
I used to be a supervisor and I feel I would have handled the situation differently and don't understand why people have to manage things the way she does/did with no sense of fairness.
I also had to write a graduation speech this morning and it made me sob and cry. I'd like to share it with you....perhaps in reading you will understand some of the frustration I'm going through and get to know me a little better.
I would like to thank my friends and family for being here this evening. I want to thank each of you for putting up with my ranting and raving for the past 18 months too. There were many days when I would become frustrated and threaten to quit and just go get a job. After all, no woman who is close to 60 years old has any business being in school. She’d have to be out of her mind to pursue a new career at that age when she should be studying manuals on retirement communities.
In 2009 I lost a job I loved and had worked at for over 20 years, due to outsourcing of my IT position to another country. The land of the dot com industry that I knew and loved had changed. Stumbling through a down economy with a lack of income, at nearly retirement age, in a changing work landscape, placed me in Sharon, in school at LTI. In the words of John Lennon – Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans.
Someday I hope that the changes I’ve had to go through will all make sense. I will continue to try to laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears and keep reminding myself that everything happens for a reason.
The staff here at LTI has been awesome and I will always have great things to say about their teaching abilities and dedication. Many of the things they have taught me and things about each of their unique personalities will forever be ingrained in my mind… as long as I still have one.
I have learned many valuable tidbits of information and new skills that I hope will be evident to any new employer I might work for in the future. I have always believed and said that one is never too old to learn something new. The fact that I’m standing here this evening wearing a cap and gown is living proof of that belief.
I’d like to congratulate all the graduates on their achievements on this special occasion. I hope you will take the chance to thank those who have supported and guided you in your journey --- your parents, teachers, loved ones, friends and your community. I wish you every success in your future studies and endeavors.
In closing I’d like to share the following quote I ran across and relate to
Graduation is only a concept. In real life every day you graduate. Graduation is a process that goes on until the last day of your life. If you can grasp that, you'll make a difference. ~Arie Pencovici
Thank you for your attention and for lending me your ear.