Thanks to everyone, it will a long road to hopefully a happy recovery for me. I was in an abusive relationship and we all know how those things go as most women go back to it. I hope this time is different for me. I haven't spoke much in the last week to anyone expect you guys and I sure have a lot on my mind just hoping to overcome it. It's hard for me to sit here and think that after 7 years of being in that relationship that I could leave like that we actually have a kid together and he raised my other three with me. I am not really sure what to think but I know god has all the answers that I will be seeking on my journey so where ever he takes me from here the one thing I have to remember is it's god's plan not mine.