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Off-Topic / Missed you
« on: January 22, 2022, 06:49:20 am »Message ID: 1366887
I haven’t been here or any surveys in a few months. Please don’t judge me for what I’m going to say, but I consider some of you friends and sometimes you have to get things off your chest. I’ve been married 30 years, we have had our ups and downs like everyone. We lived in a basement apartment in the beginning, and we worked hard and saved so my husband could start his own construction business (which he has). No matter how bad or long or loud our fights were there was never any physical until a few months ago. That was the first time he ever put his hands on me. After it was over, he apologized over and over. Swears it will never happen again. I have never been afraid of him before (I am 5’2” and weigh about 120, he is 6’1” and is muscular due to his work and about 200 ). I now fear him, he could kill me, not saying he would, but I have this fear. We are going to counseling and trying to work this out. He has recently moved back into our home, but sleeps in another room, as I lock the bedroom door, even when he said ‘I swear I won’t hurt you again, but locking the door of a house I built seems silly’, that was said as a joke, I know that. Do I love him, yes. Do I trust him, somewhat. So that’s my story, sorry it’s so long.